Damn It!!

Pesanan

"Hei kamu! Ya, kamu. Aku tak boleh masuk ke dalam kehidupan kamu lagi. Sudah tidak boleh. Tapi, boleh tak kamu izinkan aku untuk masuk ke dalam pemikiranmu? Aku mahu membaca kamu. Mahu melawat mindamu yang cantik. Tinggalkan jejak untuk aku ke sana. Bolehkah?"

Yang Benar,

Masa Silammu

Ayat Pinjam

"Sometimes you have to be your own hero, because sometimes, the people you can't live without, CAN live without you." 

sad but but true....

             

Tuju Tuju

somebody dedicated this song to me.paling tidak cukup untuk buat gua tersenyum.heh..

 
 bila difikir-fikir,it's kind of sweet  dingorat di zaman dewasa oleh orang yang pernah mengorat kita di zaman budak-budak.secara teknikalnya,dia boleh dikatakan antara lelaki terawal yang pernah mengorat gua.masa tu masih sekolah tadika.i was 6,and he was 5.gila advance baru umur 5 tahun dah pandai mengorat awek.selalu buat gua menangis kena kacau.but well,that was then and now is now.gua tak ambil serius pun.takkan cakap sambil bergurau pun nak ambil serius,kan?janji ada modal nak senyum,sudah.what will be will be after all.biar takdir buat kerja dia,menentukan segalanya.i tried,and i failed.so,have a break,have a kit kat.
                

Kekelakaran

gua tergelak sorang-sorang.tahun 2007 atau 2008 kalau tak silap gua,gua ada masuk satu kelas untuk cukupkan elektif di kolej.sebab gua masuk balik lepas dah habis praktikal segala,jadi semua yang ada dalam kelas tu waktu tu adalah junior-junior,adik-adik.salah-seorang daripadanya adalah budak perempuan sweet bernama siti mastura atau lebih mesra dengan panggilan mas.gua ingat gua pernah satu kumpulan dengan dia masa buat projek kelas.comel budaknya.selalu berkhayal dan blur-blur,disakat kawan-kawan.i used to have her contact number in my phonebook dan the funny part is,she's also in my friendlist at fb.heh..such a small world.what a night that is tonight.wallaweh.lol.

                     

Aries Oh Aries

How to Attract an Aries Man as an Aries Woman: 

If you want to attract an Aries man, you’ve simply got to be a challenge. Just act like he’s not the only man on earth, and it helps if you can show some degree of helplessness (it’s okay to pretend) so that he can come to your rescue. It’s worth the charade. What you are going for with this man is his respect, so don’t ever show weakness. He will not respect you if you back down or have blurry boundaries. If he pushes you psychically push back harder. If he ignores you, do something to get his attention. If he stops calling you, get on with your life and let word get out that you are moving forward. If he confronts you, stand your ground. Speak up for yourself and respond tit for tat. Don’t confuse flirting with other men as a way to attract or keep your Aries man. That’s a sure way to end the relationship. 

 How to Attract an Aries Woman as an Aries Man: 

If you want her to notice you, be firm but polite about some disagreement with her.  That will earn her respect which is half the battle.  As the relationship progresses, she’ll appreciate your macho side, but in the beginning do your best to shield her from your cowboy lifestyle.  Try not to shoot your way in and out of Dodge on the first few dates.  She has that problem herself; what will get her attention is someone who knows how to be diplomatic and get along.  Let her see you have friends and contacts, people with whom you have longstanding, harmonious relationships (I know it’s a stretch, but dig someone up).  She’ll find this sort of thing irresistible since she can’t get along with anyone for too long. Once you’ve got her hooked, your independence and drive will keep her on the line.

 

Degree of Romance: 

This combination probably has the highest degree of romance possible, with Leo to Leo second. This relationship is all about knights in shining armor, chivalry, dashing heroes, and moments of grand passion. You never have to worry about the romance dying. This is one man who will not be intimidated by a lady ram’s competence and independent spirit. The only trick to keeping the romance alive is that somehow the Aries woman has to seem like a damsel in distress once in a while (as unappealing as that is to her).

Degree of Passion: 

These are two fire signs: impetuous, impulsive doers who act on their feelings and impulses with little regard for the consequences. If it’s passion you are looking for and you can really stand the heat, go for it!

Degree of Friendship: 

Two Aries are comrades in arms. This is a couple that will do a lot together. Activities such as mountain climbing, skeet shooting, white water river rafting, and remodeling houses are the kind of things that appeal to them both. It helps if both are fit, athletic, and adventuresome in nature.

Progression of Relationship: 

This relationship will take off like a sky rocket or not at all. It somehow feeds itself with fanned flames of passion and adventure or it dies a wretched death of disinterest or disrespect. The key is to keep it moving.

Sex: 

There’s a high degree of openness and spontaneity here. Impulses are welcome and understood. Clothes are always optional, and the moment is always right.

When It’s Over: 

This relationship can end as quickly as it starts. It may very well close with a fight, and there will be no looking back.  Rams are all or nothing players.

//yang tak percaya dan tak suka zodiak tu,rilek lah.why so serious?heh.;p

Nye Nye Nye

apa kena dengan id ym gua?lagi sekali kena,"your id is locked".siapa yang gatal sangat kunci?

           

Pujaan Hatiku

"Malu ke?"

taklah.cuma tak berminat je.

                                        

Pembunuh Bersiri Sepanjang Zaman

1. Ahmad suradji-capricorn
2. Dean Arnold Corll-capricorn
3. Angel Maturino-capricorn 
4. Huang yong-capricorn
5. Harold Shipman-capricorn 
6. Ivan Milat-capricorn 
7. Marcel Petiot-capricorn 
8. William George Bonin-capricorn
9. Joseph D. Ball-capricorn
10. Clifford Robert Olson-capricorn
11. Charles Chi-Tat Ng-capricorn
12. Dorothea Helen Gray-capricorn 
13. Marcelo Costa de Andrade-capricorn
14. Ian Brady-capricorn  
15. Elizabeth Báthory-leo
16. Kendall Francois-leo
17. Anatoly Yurievich Onoprienko-leo
18. Michael ross-leo
19. Tsutomu Miyazaki-leo 
20. John George Haigh-leo
21. Jack Unterweger-leo
22. William Suff-leo
23. Myra Hindley-leo 
24. Carol M. Bundy-leo
25. Bruce George Peter Lee-leo
26. Tony Costa-leo  
27. Charles Edmund Cullen-pisces
28. Ottis Elwood Toole-pisces
29. Christopher Wilder-pisces 
30. Eric Edgar Cooke-pisces 
31. Dennis Rader-pisces
32. John Wayne Gacy-pisces 
33. Peter Manuel-pisces 
34. Randy Steven Kraft-pisces 
35. Richard Ramírez-pisces
36. Douglas Daniel Clark-pisces
37. Aileen Wuornos-pisces
38. Orville Lynn Majors-taurus
39. Earl Leonard Nelson-taurus
40. Martha Beck-taurus
41. Albert Fish-taurus
42. Wayne Williams-taurus 

43. Steven Wright-taurus

44. Richard Trenton Chase-taurus(one of the sickest serial killer ever)
45. Thomas Quick-taurus
46. David Joseph Carpenter-taurus
47. Peter Kurten-taurus 
48. Herman Webster Mudgett-taurus
49. Ted Bundy-sagittarius
50. Larry Eyler-sagittarius
51. Charles Manson-sagittarius
52. Belle Gunness-sagittarius
53. Dennis Nilsen-sagittarius
54. John Wayne Glover-sagittarius
55. Raymond Fernandez-sagittarius
56. Rosemary Pauline West-sagittarius
57. Edmund Kemper-sagittarius
58. Coral Eugene Watts-sagittarius
59. Alexander Pichushkin-aries
60. Donald Harvey-aries
61. Donald Henry Gaskins-aries
62. Joseph Paul Franklin-aries
63. Joachim Kroll-aries
64. Herbert Mullin-aries
65. John Gerard Schaefer-aries  
66. John Reginald Halliday Christie-aries
67. Paul John Knowles-aries(probably the most good looking serial killer there is)  
68. Gilles de Rais-virgo
69. henry lee lucas-virgo
70. john justin buntin-virgo
71. Richard Angelo-virgo
72. Albert Henry DeSalvo-virgo
73. Gerald Eugene Stano-virgo
74. Ed Gein-virgo
75. Coral Eugene-scorpio
76. Moses Sithole-scorpio
77. Robert Pickton-scorpio
78. Fritz Haarman-scorpio
79.  Leonard Lake-scorpio
80. Arnfinn Nesset-scorpio
81. Luis Alfredo Garavito Cubillos-aquarius
82. Robert Hansen-aquarius
83. Gary Leon Ridgway-aquarius
84. Joel David Rifkin-aquarius
85. Elifasi Msomi-aquarius
86. Robert Andrew Berdella-aquarius
87. David Berkowitz-gemini
88. Peter Kürten-gemini
89. Jeffrey Dahmer-gemini
90. Robert Lee Yates-gemini
91. Peter Sutcliffe-gemini
92. Arthur Shawcross-gemini
93. Pedro Alonso Lopez-libra
94. Andrei Chikatilo-libra
95. Bobby Joe Long-libra
96. Mary Ann Cotton-libra
97. Frederick Walter Stephen West-libra
98. Tommy Lynn Sells-cancer
99. Carl Panzram-cancer  
100. Gerald Armond-cancer  

Capricorn-14

Leo-12

Pisces-11

Taurus-11

Sagittarius-10

Aries-9

Virgo-7

Scorpio-6

Aquarius-6

Gemini-6

Libra-5

Cancer-3

Ais

"When someone fiery turns icy,it's a sad thing,really........"

"Aries ice is a very sad phenomenon, because when an Aries decides to pack up his/her bags and go over to the next challenge (i.e., leave a difficult lover), he/she almost never looks back."

"....its sadder than the fire....for anybody loving an aries, they should embrace the heat...when it goes cold...it really is ice...nothing left, empty..."

  

"An Aries will only let go once they know that the relationship is dead, and there is nothing left to save or fight for."

"When the Aries woman has been really hurt, she turns from fire to ice. Her fire bums hot and dies quickly. Her ice can be eternal."

jiwa yang hangat membara,bukan sesuatu yang mudah terpadam.biar dihumban,biar direjam,biar dihempuk dihempas,masih panas menyala seperti matahari yang tetap kembali bersinar walau berjuta kali turun hujan.takkan semudah itu.tidak akan sekali-sekali semudah itu untuk padam.lalu kenapa,mahu memaksa api bertukar menjadi ais?sayangnya....sayang berjuta kali sayang.

-YANG DAHSYAT BUKAN PEMBUNUHAN ITU, TAPI KAU BUNUH AKU-

             

It's Fun

If there was one representative of each Zodiac sign, and they all made up one war team, which position would each individual sign have, and how would all of these different talents/ positions work in unison to create a team?

Gemini = the Spy (they can juggle so bloody much!)
Virgo = ensuring the troop's aligned just right
Libra = the pretend peacemaker who may not know what the hell the fight's about but they get a chance to look good
Aries = Commander (they are just not afraid to tell people to shut the hell up, even though like libra, they may just be clueless too but will attempt to lead the show anyways)
Pisces = they can make like the tree so they can really be anything depending on what the team needs. Don't give them the gun either, they may just swim away and forget to shoot
Taurus and Capricorn = organising the resources of the team
Cancer = the team doctor and team shrink
Leo = the one that wears all the badges, and made up titles. May kill the Aries for the commander title though
Aquarius and Sag = if you can find them, good luck.
Scorp = the master strategist. Don't send them to spy though... they may bring back too much paranoia

          

Impian

Quote

"You don't do your best because you enjoy it. You enjoy it because you're doing your best."

  

Quartet

sedang menonton drama ni.cool.fukuda saki,gua suka.the girl in the scene,not the guy.

       

Jatuh Cinta

oh sayang i love you!

 

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

Yikes, you're a commitment-phobe.

When you hear the "c" word, you run -- fast. You're deathly afraid to tie yourself to anyone or anything. You have a major problem committing in both your personal and professional life. You're a creature of change. You don't like to stay in one place too long... figuratively and literally. Maybe it's because you've been hurt or maybe it's just in your nature. While it's OK to embrace change, there does come a point in life where you have to find something or someone you like and stick to it. At the end of the day, you don't want to end up being someone with no ties that bind. 

 mari main kuiz.

Sebuah Lakon Layar-'AMANDA'-Selitan Tanpa Motif

FADE IN:

EXT. LUAR RUMAH
Hari hujan.

1. INT. BILIK TIDUR-SIANG
Daripada jendela, hujan mengalir perlahan. Langit suram tapi tak terlalu gelap. Bunyi hujan kedengaran kuat.

Bunyi hujan semakin perlahan. Bersebelahan jendela, AMANDA sedang duduk termenung. Dia memandang ke arah hujan. Air mukanya nampak muram dan sedih.

Amanda
(Monolog)
Azam, dah lama masa berlalu. Dah sepuluh tahun. Baliklah.. Manda tahu Azam masih sayang Manda. Tolonglah balik. Manda masih tunggu Azam..


Amanda angkat tangan meletakkannya pada jendela. Dia cuba menyentuh hujan. Air mukanya menjadi semakin sedih dan airmatanya mula bergenang.

Di ribanya terdapat sebuah kotak yang menyimpan beberapa keping surat lama serta album gambar. Dia keluarkan album gambar tersebut dan membeleknya. Airmatanya menitis di atas gambar sepasang remaja yang nampak begitu gembira bersama.

Wajah AZAM terbayang samar-samar. Dia sedang tersenyum. Kedengaran suara ketawa yang bergema-gema. Senyuman Azam berganti dengan wajah Amanda yang sayu. Amanda pejam mata dan membukanya kembali lalu memandang jauh ke luar jendela.


FLASHBACK

2. EXT. PERHENTIAN BAS-PETANG

Hujan turun dengan lebat. Amanda berlari mendapatkan tempat berteduh. Azam juga sedang berteduh di tempat yang sama.

Dia menyapu baju yang agak basah sambil mengibas-ngibas rambut.

Azam
(Tersenyum sambil menghulurkan tangan menadah hujan)
Lebat hujan, kan?


Amanda kelihatan agak janggal dan terkejut. Dia tersenyum kekok dan agak kaku.

Amanda
(mengangguk)
Ya..

Amanda duduk di kerusi bersebelahan Azam.

Azam
Lewat balik? Sorang je ke?

Amanda
Ada kerja sikit dengan cikgu Khatijah. Kawan-kawan lain dah balik dulu.

Azam
Saya Azam. Senior awak. Kenal tak? Kita satu kelab. Persatuan Bahasa.

Amanda
(mengangguk)
Tahu. Saya Amanda.

Azam
(berpaling menghadap Amanda sambil tersenyum.)
Saya tahu nama awak.

Sekali lagi Amanda agak terkejut.

Azam
Kenapa macam tak selesa je? Awak nampak takut-takut. Jangan bimbang. Saya tak makan orang.

Amanda
(tertawa)
Bukan macam tu. Janggal. Selalu bertembung dan selalu nampak tapi tak pernah bersapa.

Azam
(berseloroh)
Jadi maknanya awak perasan jugaklah kat saya ya? Saya memang selalu perhati awak. Tapi belum ada peluang nak tegur. Nasib baik petang ni hujan. Tak rugi.

Amanda tersipu-sipu.

Azam
Awak nak balik dengan apa ni?

Amanda
Tunggu bas. Ayah outstation. Tak ada sape yang boleh datang ambik.

Azam
(kehairanan)
Nak naik bas? Lewat petang macam ni takkan nak tunggu bas lagi? Baspun belum tentu ada. Macam nilah. Saya tengah tunggu orang datang ambik. Kejap lagi sampailah. Biar saya tumpangkan awak.

Amanda
Eh, tak apalah. Saya boleh naik bas. Tak payah la susah-susah pulak.

Sebuah kereta mewah tiba. Azam bangun meluru ke kereta. Dia ambil payung lalu berlari mendapatkan Amanda kembali.

Azam
(membuka payung menghulurkannya pada Amanda)
Jomlah. Tunggu apa lagi?

Amanda masih teragak-agak.

Azam

Cepatlah. Selagi awak tak datang saya tunggu dalam hujan.

Melihat Azam menunggu dalam hujan, Amanda akhirnya mengalah.

Mereka melangkah ke arah kereta sambil berkongsi payung.

3. INT. KERETA YANG SEDANG BERGERAK

Amanda menunjukkan arah rumahnya. Kereta membelok lalu berhenti di perkarangan rumah.

Amanda
Terimakasih sebab tolong hantarkan.

Azam
(mengeluh)
Cepat betul sampai.

Amanda
Habis tu?

Azam
(agak gugup)
Err.. Lain kali boleh kita jumpa lagi? Err.. Maksud saya, kita jadi kawan?

Amanda
(tersipu-sipu dan bersuara perlahan)
Hmm.. Kalau awak suka.

4. INT. BILIK TIDUR

Airmata Amanda menitis lagi. Dia masih merenung gambar-gambar lama di dalam album.

Amanda
(monolog)
Azam.. Manda rindu Azam.

Close-Up airmuka Amanda.

Amanda ketap bibir menahan perasaan sebak.

Amanda
(monolog)
Rindu sangat!


FLASH BACK

5. EXT. TAMAN BUNGA-SIANG

Lakaran menunjukkan nama Azam dan Amanda. Amanda gembira melihatnya.

Amanda
Cantik! Azam buat ke?

Azam
(mengangguk)
Azam dan Amanda.. forever & ever. Sebab Azam sayang sangat Manda.

Amanda
(terharu)
Manda tahu. Manda pun sayang Azam. Sampai bila-bila..

Amanda
(menyambung dan tertawa)
Tapi jahat tau! Sebab Manda pokok ni yang jadi mangsa.

Azam
(ketawa)
Sekali-sekala. Tapi nama kita akan terpahat kat sini sampai bila-bila. Sama macam nama Manda.. terpahat dalam hati Azam sampai bila-bila.

Azam memandang wajah Amanda dengan penuh kasih-sayang. Amanda turut membalas sambil tersenyum bahagia.

6. EXT.KAWASAN SEKOLAH-SIANG

MUZIK LATAR BELAKANG

Amanda dan Azam sedang mengulangkaji pelajaran. Amanda kelihatan tekun menjawab soalan. Azam bertindak selaku tutor, menunjuk-ajar Amanda untuk mengulangkaji.

Muzik latarbelakang diperlahankan. Sewaktu Azam dan Amanda tekun dengan buku mereka sambil riang bergurau-senda, muncul dari belakang mereka INA, SHAFIQ dan KAMIL(kawan-kawan Amanda dan Azam).

Ina
(menyergah Amanda)
Hah! Berkepit je kerja kau orang. Langsung tak boleh berenggang.

Amanda sedikit tersentak apabila disergah dan dia tersipu-sipu apabila diusik oleh rakan-rakannya.

Azam
(bergurau)
Kenapa usik buah hati aku, ha? Dia sayang aku. Itu pasal berkepit dengan aku. Kan Manda?

Amanda
(mencebik)
Kita sayang awak ke awak yang sayang kita?

Azam
Ala, sama la. Dua-dua. Satu dunia pun tahu Azam sayang Manda, Manda sayang Azam.

Ina, Shafiq dan Kamil
(menggeleng kepala)
Dah mula dah, dah mula dah!

Shafiq
Romeo & Juliet dah nak berdrama.

Mereka ketawa beramai-ramai.

7. EXT. TAMAN BUNGA-SIANG

Azam membawa Amanda ke bawah pokok yang berukir nama mereka dengan menutup matanya. Apabila tiba di situ, dia lepaskan mata Amanda perlahan-lahan.

Amanda
(terkejut dan gembira)
Azam..

Dia begitu gembira sehingga hilang kata-kata. Di bawah pokok, tersedia hamparan untuk duduk dan terdapat kek coklat iaitu kek kegemarannya bersama lilin.

Azam
(menyanyi sambil menyalakan lilin di atas kek)
Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to Manda.. Happy birthday to you..

Amanda
(terharu)
Azam.. terimakasih buat semua ni.

Azam
(meletakkan jari ke mulut)
Syy.. Tiup lilin, sayang. Make your wish.

Azam menarik perlahan tangan Amanda mempersilakannya duduk. Amanda melutut lalu meniup lilin. Dia pandang wajah Azam dengan terharu. Tanpa disedari, airmatanya bergenang.

Azam
(memujuk)
Suka je nangis Manda ni. Hari ni kan harijadi Manda. Azam nak Manda jadi gadis yang paling gembira dalam dunia ni.

Dia seluk poket lalu mengeluarkan sebuah kotak baldu. Dia hulurkan pada Amanda.

Azam
Untuk girl yang paling Azam sayang dalam dunia ni.

Amanda membuka kotak tersebut. Apabila melihat rantai yang terdapat di dalam kotak tersebut, dia terpegun.

Amanda
Cantiknya, Azam! Manda tak tahu nak cakap apa. terimakasih sebab buat semua ni untuk Manda.

Azam
‘Buah hati Azam’.. Loket ni khas untuk satu-satunya buah hati Azam, Amanda.

Azam pakaikan rantai itu pada Amanda.

Amanda
(sambil mengenggam loket)
Manda janji Manda akan pakai dan jaga rantai ni dengan baik sampai bila-bila.

Azam
Azam nak Manda simpan tanda Azam selalu ada kat sisi Manda. Azam betul-betul sayang Manda. Sumpah! Azam tak nak Manda lukakan Azam. Sebab Azam akan rasa sakit sangat. Janji, ya? Biar orang cakap Azam cemburu, Azam tamak, tapi Azam tak nak mana-mana lelaki ganggu dan ambil Manda dari Azam.

Amanda
Manda tahu. Manda janji.

8. INT. BILIK TIDUR-SIANG

Airmata Amanda menitis lagi. Dia genggam rantai yang dipakainya. Dia kucup loket yang berukir ‘Buah hati Azam’.

Amanda
(monolog)
Manda tak pernah lupa janji Manda, Azam. Kenapa Azam masih tak nak maafkan Manda? Cukuplah hukum Manda, Azam. Baliklah. Manda takut Manda tak mampu tunggu Azam lagi.

9. EXT. PERHENTIN BAS-SIANG

Amanda duduk bersendirian menunggu Azam. Tiba-tiba muncul seseorang mencuit bahunya. Amanda gembira kerana menyangka Azam tetapi sebaliknya Shafiq yang datang.
Shafiq
(sambil melabuhkan duduk di sebelah Amanda)
Tunggu Azam ke?

Amanda
(mengangguk)
Ha’a.. Azam belum keluar dari kelas lagi ke?

Shafiq
Tadi belum lagi. Kejap lagi dia keluarlah tu. Eh, ada something kat rambut awak.

Shafiq membantu menepis habuk di atas rambut Amanda. Tanpa disengajakan habuk tersebut masuk ke dalam mata Amanda. Melihat Amanda yang kesakitan, dia cuba membantu meniup matanya.

Tanpa disedari, Azam memerhatikan gelagat mereka dari belakang. Dengan perasaan cemburu, dia terus meluru ke arah Shafiq lalu mencekak leher bajunya.

Amanda
(panik)
Azam, kenapa ni?! Azam, sabar Azam.

Azam
(marah dan cuba menumbuk Shafiq)
Apa kau buat dengan Manda, hah?!

Shafiq
(cuba meleraikan tangan Azam)
Zam, sabar Zam. Kau dah salah faham, Zam.

Amanda menarik Azam, cuba menenangkannya.

Amanda
Azam, please.. Dengar cakap Manda. Jangan buat macam ni. Sabar, Zam.

Azam mengalah. Dengan perasaan marah yang masih menyala, dia lepaskan Shafiq. Tanpa menunggu lama, dia terus berlalu dari situ tanpa mengendahkan Amanda yang cuba menjernihkan keadaan.

10. EXT. KAWASAN SEKOLAH-SIANG

Muzik latar-belakang

Amanda menunggu Azam keluar dari kelas. Dia cuba mendekati Azam namun Azam bersikap dingin dan tidak mengendahkannya.

11. EXT. TAMAN BUNGA-SIANG

Azam berdiri merenung ukiran namanya dan Amanda yang dibuatnya sendiri.

Amanda datang dari belakang menghampiri Azam.

Amanda
Azam, masih marah Manda? Tolonglah. Jangan seksa Manda macam ni. Manda minta maaf, okey?

Amanda pegang bahu Azam namun Azam menepis. Dia berpaling daripada Amanda lalu terus melangkah meninggalkan Amanda.

Amanda tak mampu menahan perasaan dan menangis sendirian di bawah pokok melihat ukiran namanya dan Azam.

12. EXT. KAWASAN SEKOLAH-SIANG

MUZIK LATAR BELAKANG

Setiapkali Amanda cuba mendekatinya, Azam terus mengelakkan diri dan bersikap dingin.

13. EXT. KAWASAN SEKOLAH-SIANG

Kawasan sekolah riuh-rendah dengan kehadiran bekas pelajar yang mengambil keputusan SPM. Dalam keriuhan tersebut, Amanda mengintai sekeliling mencari Azam namun kelibatnya tidak kelihatan. Dia benar-benar sedih dan kecewa.

14. INT. RUANG TAMU-MALAM

Amanda mencapai telefon lalu membuat panggilan.

Amanda
Hello, assalamualaikum. Boleh saya bercakap dengan Azam.

V/O(suara wanita dewasa)
Waalaikumusalam. Siapa bercakap tu? Kawan Azam ke? Azam tak ada. Azam tak bagitau ke?

Amanda
(terkejut)
Bagitau apa?

V/O
Azam sambung belajar di UK. Pagi tadi dia dah bertolak pergi sana.

Amanda benar-benar terkejut mendengarnya hingga terdiam.

V/O
Hello..

Amanda
(tersentak dari lamunan)
Ya.. Hello.. Tak apalah kalau macam tu. Terimakasih.

Dia meletakkan gagang lalu berlari ke tingkat atas sambil menangis.

PUAN JUNAIDAH (ibu Amanda) yang sedang menyiapkan makan malam terkejut melihat Amanda.

Puan Junaidah
(bimbang)
Manda kenapa?

Amanda berpaling pada ibunya dan tanpa menjawab terus menaiki tangga meluru ke bilik. Di dalam bilik, dia menangis teresak-esak di katil.


15. INT. BILIK TIDUR-PETANG

Amanda masih termenung melihat hujan.

Amanda
(monolog:- dalam nada sebak)
Sepuluh tahun Manda cari Azam. Mana Azam pergi? Kenapa jauhkan diri Manda sampai macam tu?

Amanda keluarkan sekeping gambar Azam lalu menatapnya dengan sayu.

Senyuman Azam terbayang lagi samar-samar. Kemudian bertukar dengan raut wajah pilu Amanda.

Amanda
(monolog)
Sampai macam tu sekali ke Azam rasa terluka? Manda minta maaf.. Manda tahu Azam sayang Manda sangat. Tapi dah lama dah Azam. Manda dah tak tahu mana nak cari Azam. Manda tahu Azam sedar dan dapat rasa isi hati Manda. Manda tahu Azam sedar Manda masih tunggu Azam. Mandapun faham perasaan Azam. Tapi tolonglah Azam. Baliklah. Manda rindu sangat. Manda teringin sangat nak tengok Azam sekali lagi. Tolonglah..

Amanda bangun dari sisi jendela lalu melangkah ke depan cermin. Dia pandang cermin sambil meraba wajah yang cengkung dan pucat. Dia ketap bibir. Amanda benar-benar kelihatan tak bermaya.

16. INT. PEJABAT-PETANG

Azam memandang sekeping gambar di dalam bingkai yang berada di atas mejanya. Dia ambil gambar tersebut lalu tersenyum.

Azam
(berbisik perlahan)
Buah hati Azam..

Bayangan wajah Amanda yang samar-samar tergambar dan kemudian digantikan dengan wajah Azam yang gembira.

Azam
(monolog)
Manda, Azam mintak maaf sebab ambik masa terlalu lama untuk cakap Azam dah maafkan Manda. Azam tahu Manda tak salah. Sorry sayang.

Dia letakkan kembali bingkai gambar itu lalu bangun memandang ke luar bangunan.

Azam
(monolog)
Sepuluh tahun living in denial. Lari dari Manda. Tapi Azam tetap akan balik, Manda.. Untuk jadikan Manda milik Azam secara sah.

Wajah Azam menggambarkan harapan hatinya.

17. EXT. PERKARANGAN RUMAH AMANDA-SIANG

Muzik latar belakang

Azam menekan loceng pintu. Dia cium jambangan bunga ros merah di tangannya sambil membaiki rambut untuk kelihatan kacak di depan Amanda.

Pintu dibuka. Puan Junaidah mempersilakan Azam masuk. Raut muka Puan Junaidah nampak sugul, berlawanan dengan air muka Azam yang begitu gembira dan teruja.

Puan Junaidah meninggalkan Azam lalu kembali bersama kotak milik Amanda yang mengandungi barang kenangan mereka dan menghulurkannya pada Azam.

Puan Junaidah berbicara dengan Azam.

Bunyi guruh berdentum.

Serta-merta raut muka Azam berubah. Bunga ros terlepas dari genggaman. Azam menangis tersedu-sedan tanpa mampu mengawal perasaannya.

18. EXT. TANAH PERKUBURAN-PETANG

Azam melutut di sisi pusara dengan wajah yang menggambarkan kesedihan dan sesalan yang teramat-sangat. Dia menadah tangan membaca doa.

Azam
(monolog)
Maafkan Azam, Manda.. Maafkan Azam! Azam dah ambik masa terlalu lama dari yang sepatutnya..

Airmata Azam berlinangan mengalir laju di wajahnya.

V/O Amanda
Azam, Manda tahu suatu hari nanti Azam akan balik cari Manda. Kalau ada masa, Manda akan tunggu Azam. Tapi mungkin Manda tak sempat..

V/O Amanda
(menyambung)
Manda pun tak tahu keadaan akan jadi macam ni. Manda minta maaf sangat-sangat kalau Manda tak dapat tunggu Azam. Manda sendiri tak nak macam ni. Tapi Manda sakit, Azam. Kanser Manda ni dah semakin merebak.

V/O Amanda
(menyambung)
Azam, Manda rindu sangat pada Azam. Teringin sangat Manda nak tengok Azam. Manda rindu nak tengok Azam senyum, tengok mata Azam.. Dengar suara Azam.. Tak pernah dalam sehari Manda tak ingat pada Azam, Azam tahu tak? Manda harap sangat nak jumpa Azam. Tapi Manda takut Manda tak boleh tunggu lama lagi..

V/O Amanda
(menyambung)
Ramai yang cakap Manda bodoh terus setia pada Azam sedangkan bertahun-tahun Azam menyepi walaupun dah puas Manda cari Azam.. Tapi Manda tak kisah.. Sebab Manda tahu Azam memang sayang sangat kat Manda dan Manda tahu Azam tak pernah lupakan Manda selama ni.. Manda tak pernah putus harapan pada Azam..

V/O Amanda
(menyambung)
Azam.. Sepuluh tahun Manda tunggu Azam tapi sayangnya Manda tak tahu mampu ke tak Manda tunggu untuk tiga bulan lagi. Hati Manda rasa hancur bila dapat tahu Manda mungkin takkan hidup lama. Banyak sangat impian yang Manda simpan untuk Azam dan Manda harap nak penuhinya sama-sama. Tapi, mungkin memang dah takdir macam ni. Andai kata kita tak sempat jumpa, Manda nak Azam tahu Manda tetap sayang Azam dan Manda tak pernah mungkir janji yang Manda ucap pada Azam dulu.... Jaga diri baik-baik, sayang.. Manda mintak maaf untuk segalanya.

Azam
(monolog)
Buah hati Azam..

V/O Amanda
(serentak dengan suara Azam)
Buah hati Azam..



TAMAT....

Kuiz Gatal

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you possess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be idealistic and passionate, and you make each moment memorable. Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life. By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is strong. So strong that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic! You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale. You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are Bad Girl Sexy

Girl, you are nothing but trouble. And that's hot. You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on. And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you. Don't give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is.

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

You Are Very Sexy

Damn! You are one hot number. You have a lot of sex appeal. You know you're sexy, and you're not afraid to put it all out there. And while you're very appealing, you're careful not to be trashy or over the top. Sexy is all about attitude. And you totally have the attitude that people love. How You Are Sexy You are friendly and outgoing, even to people who don't deserve it. Your positive body language makes you even sexier. You know what (or who) you want, and you're not afraid to go get it. What could be sexier than that? You are flirtatious and fun with most people. You know how to keep things light, friendly, and sexy. You feel gorgeous, and you always try to look your best. You make the best of what you've got. Totally sexy!

Are You Sexy?

You Are Lacy Panties

You're one seductive chica, but you've also got a ton of class. You are like a pinup girl, with timeless beauty and sexiness. Men are afraid to talk to you, knowing they'll be addicted to your charm immediately. Only a true manly man, confident in himself, is your perfect match.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

You Are 83% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts! Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it. You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing. You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing. Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal. A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You Are Dangerous and Unpredictable

Your idea of romance is a relationship that makes your heart pound and your stomach churn. You like to live on the edge. If you get too comfortable in a relationship, then you get bored. You need lots of mystery, excitement, and even danger to keep you interested. Your ideal parter is sexy to the point of making you lose control. You like to feel completely overwhelmed. For you, love is being completely taken with another person. Nothing short of obsession will do for you.

The Lingerie Test

   

Your Evil Name Is Amaris Eris

Muhahahaha!

What's Your Evil Name?

 

Amaris Eris..sounds cool..

You Look Like an Aries

It's likely that you have a lean and strong body. Your facial features are uniquely beautiful, and you may have a scar or beauty mark. You have good posture, and you carry yourself with an air of confidence. You have a strong, steady gaze. You eyes are often issuing a challenge. Like most Aries people, you probably very energetic and enjoy it when someone challenges you. You expect the best from people, and you believe in them. You are willing to take a risk on someone.

What Sign Do You Look Like?

    
           

Suka Suki

mungkin dah buat dan dah berulang pun tampal kat sini tapi,suka hati gua lah.

You Are 4: The Individualist

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel. At Your Best: You are inspired, artistic, and introspective. You know what you're thinking, and you can communicate it well. At Your Worst: You are melancholy, alienated, and withdrawn. Your Fixation: Envy Your Primary Fear: To have no identity Your Primary Desire: To find yourself Other Number 4's: Alanis Morisette, Johnny Depp, J.D. Salinger, Jim Morrison, and Anne Rice.

What Number Are You?

Your Spiritual Number is Eight

You bring inspiration and success into people's lives. You understand how the world works, and you have a knack for money. Right now, your life is all about goals and progress. This is nothing new though - you're always moving forward. You have a lot of perspective in life. You are able to remove your emotions and see the big picture. You usually bet right in life. You have are intuitive and win often.

What's Your Spiritual Number?

You Are Alluring

Your positive traits: You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet. Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you. Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected. Your negative traits: You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements. Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to regret it later. You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had. Your ideal partner: A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics. Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months. Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased. Your dating style: Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your ideal date may involve a couple motorcycles or naked skydiving. Your seduction style: Honest and direct - you have no need for romance or much foreplay. Show off. You like to show your lover how you're the best ever. Ambitious. You often like to go all night - or aim for multiple orgasms. Tips for the future: Start to believe in second and third chances. You don't have to dump them so fast. Savor the process. Sometimes the best part of falling in love is taking things in slow motion. Let go of comparisons. If someone's with you, then you've already one. Stop worrying about exes. Best color to attract mate: Red Best day for a date: Tuesday

What's Your Love Profile?

You Are More Like Angelina Jolie

Bad girl with a heart of gold. You are smart, sexy, and strong willed. You aren't against stealing another girl's man... If he's better off with you!

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

You Are More Like Marilyn Monroe

You are fun, flirty, and outrageous. You are the true definition of sexy. Some people may find you to be intimidating, but you are truly sweet and kind. You tend to draw people in with your attractiveness. You are a sultry and irresistible flirt. You are glamourous and dramatic. Being gorgeous is important to you, and you go all out to look your best.

Are You More Marilyn or Audrey?

You Judge People Based on Intuition

You can't explain why you trust and like some people. It's all about going with your gut. Your instincts tend to be right, and your first impression of someone usually sticks. Keep going with your intuition, as it has served you well ... especially when you have a bad feeling about someone. Be open to changing your mind about people. Your intuition may change if you learn more information about someone.

How Do You Judge People?

You Are 34% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?